I'm thinking about a brand new hope

Hey,

The date is 8/30/05 and the time is 11:09 pm central. Today I emailed a man by the name of Rajeev I met at a leadership confrence in the summer of '03. He was the key presenter on the last day of the 9 day confrence. At first I was a bit skeptical about the guy,seemed just like another average Joe, But as soon as he started speaking every doubt I had in my mind was wisked away. It was an awesome performance/keynote but the best thing I got out of it was trust before suspicion. I told myself thats how I was going to live. From 03' untill now I have followed that as close as I possibly could. What has this got me you ask? Friends,true friends. yeah sure there has been road bumps with people but thats okay though. Id like to share a peice Rajeev did a few years back,im not sure of the actual date its called "Wars Have No Winners"

Sleep my child… sleep…
I can’t ----
The American Dream Has Become A Nightmare.

They eat bombs for breakfast
International treaties for dinner

Threats accomplish their desires
They instruct others… don’t do what we do
or else
be prepared to suffer severe consequences…

Do you know who I am? Here’s a clue.

I can’t sleep
----false promises are digested in my stomach...
cancers incubate on the television screen
teleprompters dictate the future

In a couple of weeks they say,
"It's all over. We have claimed victory.
The enemy is no more——no more.
no more.”

We have found a cure…
DELETE ME, please
Keep your medicine

In just a few seconds...
get ready for an emergency action—
A surgical incision.
All users please abort quickly
The virus is spreading
To avoid infection
Simultaneously press the control escape delete key

But, why can't i sleep?
These video games are boring; i want the real thing...
my frustration is your pain….
BUT something is wrong….
The steering wheel is locked… the brakes have been cut…
i want to bring the troops home
and for that
....I AM EXPENDABLE....

I DO NOT EXIST----RESIST----EXIST-----RESIST----EXIST

DELETE ME------
I AM-----A WOMAN--------
I AM-----------A MAN_____….

Being killed because the evil dictator oppresses me….
i am being killed because you want to free me…
i am a casualty of being in the right place at the wrong time…

VACCINATE ME------
I AM-----A WOMAN--------I AM-----------A MAN….
NO, I AM COLLATORAL DAMAGE……

A CHILD
NEVER ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE MOMMY’S WOMB.

RELEASE ME

i can't place blame... there is no fault worth claiming.
Somewhere someone is crying and watching...
laughing and reading...
another loved one is lost,
and i thought,
that by expressing myself i could stop the pain.
i thought that by forwarding an email
i could exist again…

DELETE ME

i knew i had to burn my dissertation… life seemed irrelevant
i decided i would not pay my
STUDENT LOANS BACK TO THE GOVERNMENT.

i thought maybe if i wrote to all the people whom i may never see again, that then, well, maybe, that i could sleep. Just one night... let me sleep…..
give me again a purpose…..

A SANDBOX TO PLAY IN…
A DESERT WITHOUT LANDMINES OR INSINUATIONS

I AM A CHILD IN THE DESERT.
A SOLDIER IN THE SANDBOX.
AN EMPIRE WITHOUT DIRECTION

This is more than a bad dream.
This is my reality.
I'm tired.
The American Dream has become a Nightmare.

Where are all of the Americans who are fighting for me????

i don't even know who I'm killing.
I'm tired.
I've been stationed here 5 months.

I AM A DAD----I AM A MOM-----
I don't want to wait any longer--------
I want to throw down my gun, and not kill more people,
but if I disobey orders I will be put in prison...........…

i know,
I WILL DUCT TAPE MYSELF FREE

but
If I don't burn that oil well, then I will be made a prisoner----------of war--------------------------------------------------a prisoner of war------------------

No matter what I choose…
…I am freedom in a cage
choices made…

It’s so different now that i see it.
AND SINCE I DON’T LIVE IN BAGHDAD I FEAR IT------
i know that this war will only begin when they say it is over....

they lied to me...
told me to never question orders...

they lied to US~~~

WE Have Created The VIRUS

~They lied to me~

WARS HAVE NO WINNERS

Rajeev's Website




Enough of that,

Lately ive been chilling,kicking back,eating and just waiting for school to start. My cousin Louis will be tried as a Juvinile in court so thats a large attitude boost for me. With a few shake ups in my circle of friends Ive decided to just be me again,I got quite sick of being what others wanted me to be or expected me to be. If ya dont like it im glad,we shouldnt of been friends in the first place,If you do then I applaud you for being true. Staying true to oneself is the single most important quality I look for in friends. Maybe this explains why I dont have much friends. Or maybe im just a prick?LoL. Anyways Im done preaching for the night guys I really need to make a few phone calls and take a leak.

PS I'd Like it if someone could find me a girlfriend or something



Ciao